To Belong: Chapter 1

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Okay writing is def. therapy for me. I have come to the conclusion that I will keep writing and posting probably everyday until I run out of ideas or get to busy, but considering that next week is a week of testing you will probably see a lot more-as stress relief.

Title: To Belong
Rating: G
Character: Cam, Cassie
Genre: general/family
Warnings: none
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Word Count: 971

Author’s note: I love Cassie, and wish she was around more. This is a round about one shot of Cam and Cassie in a way

Cameron Mitchell loved being on SG-1, loved being a part of the team, because he has a family, dysfunctional yes, but family all the same. He knows that SG-1 has a past that does not include him or Vala, and he accepts that. Knows that while he fits in, he is a friend and yeah family of sorts, he will never have the relationship that Carter, Jackson, Teal’c and O’Neill have, with the other three. Gets that he and Vala at times are at the outskirts of SG-1 and at the same time fit in seamlessly, knows that Daniel and Vala have something going on even if neither realizes or will admit it. Knows of but has never met Teal’c’s son or the woman everyone is waiting for him to marry. But now as he sits in Sam’s living room with the General and Carolyn he is a part of this dysfunctional family.

They are there for a barbeque, which is why Sam is outside trying to get the grill t work since the last time it was used was before General O’Neill moved to Washington and he apparently did something to it. No one wanted to ask because when Vala came in she said she did not envy the poor General and that Sam was making threats. Landry and Carolyn laughed, but Cam knows, that Sam would not hesitate to do something because he does know through stories that this is not the first of her grills the general has broken. Cam revels in being a part of this team so much that he forgets that in some things he does not belong, and never can. This was never more obvious to him then, when two hours later after the guys have arrived and Sam finally admits they will need to get takeout, and Carter’s door opened.

No one else was suppose to be there, so everyone  tensed waiting to see what idiot, NID or trust operative had tried to break in. So therefore Cam, along with Vala, Carolyn and the General were surprised when a young girl walked in like she owned the place.

He watches as looks of surprise and pleasure crossed his team’s faces and all three rushed to the young girl.  But it is not until Sam’s shout of Cassie and their hug that Cam realizes who this girl is. He sees recognition flow across Landry’s face but only confusion on Vala and Carolyn’s. Cassandra Frasier, which is a name that he has heard in the halls of the SGC since he arrived. He has heard of her rarely from his team, he has never bothered to ask, knows that she is a niece and more to them, he has read the mission reports, knows she is the only survivor of her planet, and that she besides Teal’c has been here from almost the very beginning. What he does not know, what he and he realizes both the General and Lam to failed to see, was that she is a part of the SGC, part of SG-1, that they do not know and never can. The part of the SGC and SG-1 that existed with General Hammond and Janet Frasier, one that they can never get back.

As Cassie is introduced, to them, he sees laughter in her eyes when she meets Vala, and knows without a doubt that someone has told her stories of Vala and Jackson, when the later blushes. He sees the respect for General Landry and for himself. But no one misses the pain that crosses Cassie’s face when Carolyn is introduced, or the pain that flashes in the eyes of his three teammates at the introduction. He finally sees recognition on Carolyn’s part and knows that because of her position she has heard of Cassie, knows more and at the same time less of the girl who is the daughter of her predecessor, who means so much to so many people at the SGC, let alone the original four people of SG-1.

That night stories are shared, some come from Cassie, stories from what she is doing in school, to when she was younger and Jack, Daniel, Teal’c or Sam would take her somewhere. At times there is a random Grandpa George, or Uncle Jack or Daniel, that makes Cam realize he is not part of this family. He is referred to as Colonel Mitchell, Landry as General, she is like soldier in that respect with the same inflections and Cam realizes it is because her whole family is military-they have al at one time or another work or have worked at the SGC. Yet as the night goes on and Landry finishes a tale of when he was younger, he knows that there are more stories that the four of them will never hear. It does not escape his notice that Cassie does not sit near Lam, and does not directly talk to her. Not once has she said Mom nor have the other’s said something.

And Cam knows, knows that they do so as not to be rude, to not create an awkward situation. But they also do so because those stories are still to painful to tell, especially to people who are not family. Because, they did not know Janet Frasier, would not understand the pain all of them went through especially Cassie. And because, that SGC, that SG-1 is gone and nothing can bring it back, and Cam realizes with a pang-that as much as he has become a part of SG-1, of this family, with him it is different. It is a different bond he sees with this girl, who is important to so many people, who has lost so many loved ones, that he can never gain no matter how much he would like to.